(This isn’t a post about Felix specifically. Nonetheless, this photo of Felix is irresistible to me. I think he looks quite a bit like my little brother here…)
Intense past couple of day.
Yesterday my resolution came to be about Friendship (Number 8). We had a guest stay over, and he and Lee and I talked into the night. The next morning was total chaos, and once again, I was given the opportunity to work through some more issues I have with accepting the Is-ness of who my children are. They are magical, elemental spirits. They roll with the waves, they reflect their environment. They are confident and in-touch with their emotions. They are also chameleonic, at times. It was good to have our friend here. I am resolving to set aside some time each day (20 minutes), to keep up with my correspondences, to be steady about that. Too often in the past, I have been laissez-faire about putting in the work required to maintain my friendships. I will do more.
Today, we were frazzled. A trip in to town, and I was not at my best. I think my ninth resolution has to be to stick it out, and sit quietly with my feelings of frustration. I read stories to the kids on the way home, and when they fell asleep, I just luxuriated in my annoyance and irritability and tiredness, and then these melted away, and everything seemed sweeter. In retrospect, there was no problem. Silly me.